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Saturday, May 29, 201011:55 AM

It's so rewarding to do my internship here in Sarawak. 10 days of break, courtesy of the Gawai Celebration, Wesak Day, Agong's Birthday, which started yesterday, till the 6th of June. :)

Finally a good resting time for me. I bought my tickets to Singapore way back in February. I was very excited about the trip, for I finally will be getting hold of my dslr. :)

Sometime in March/April/May, I kinda regretted for buying those tickets, for I've gotten used to Bintulu, and have actually fallen in love with the place here. With the people here though there's nothing much to do.

But I'm still very elated with the fact that I'll be leaving for Singapore later at 6:50p.m., my delayed flight to KL. One night in LCCT. And then earliest flight to Singapore at 6a.m. on Sunday. :)

So,

Goodbye Malaysia. Hello Singapore.
Goodbye Ringgit. Hello Dollars.
Goodbye Park City. Hello Orchard.

Heck.

Hello AUNT, UNCLE, COUSIES.
Hello WII.
Hello SINGAPORE MEGA SALES.
Hello CANON 550D with 18-135mm kit lens/NIKON D90.
Hello CHARLES CALVIN TING AND KUEH JING ZHI.
Hello HARD ROCK HOTEL SINGAPORE and THE NEW CASINO.

omgggg loves! :)

goodbye y'all. want anything from singapore? fb me then. :)

till then.

xoxo.

muahh!

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farewell jasmitt, my beloved brother
Thursday, May 27, 20107:38 PM

Beloved Macha,

This post is dedicated to you.

I started getting to know you better like after 1st year? I don't know but eventually we got closer and closer as the years go by. I can't agree on the fact that our attitude and thinking is 99% similar, but somehow we just got along so well.

Always the joker in the class, the one making fun of lecturers, rebelling against the lecturers, cursing pak guards and mak guards for summoning you for no apparent reasons, sneaking in mars bars and food in irc, wearing torn jeans. Ahhhhh this is just so you meat.

The times we shared during study week, during lecturers, in tronoh having dinner, our cheme gang unofficial photoshoot. Those times my bro. Those times.

Yesterday was your birthday. You turned 23. And today, you left us all hanging in confusion. Why so soon? Why so young?

And till now, I still cannot accept your loss. Is this some sick joke? Is this some prank? Tell me. Shake me. Wake me up.

I still remembered we chatted up to 1:07 a.m. early in the morning today in skype. You asked why am I still awake? I said I was about to sleep soon. And at 2:30 a.m you pm-ed me again saying 'still online? happy. can't sleep?' those were the last words you said to me.

And this morning I saw you online in gtalk and skype, but I did not pm you for the fear I might interrupt your work. After work, I got back, had dinner at 5:30p.m., and that news had to come. It just had to. I received a call from Herman, saying you were gone.

I was speechless for 10 seconds, and I shouted over the phone thinking it was a prank. But heck no it wasn't. The second call came from Huat. And I knew something was wrong. Very wrong, and Amy confirmed it.

Bro. Why? I still remembered I promised to go clubbing with you, which I ended up rejecting the last moment. I still remembered the car accident we both were in, together with Herman and Qing. How you drove so fast, negotiated the cornering so well just to have a slow car blocking your way after the cornering. And how we crashed into the road divider, and how we went to the police station to sort out the mess.

If given a chance, I'd rewind those times. And all of us would have you.

Blogging this at 8:14p.m., and ahhh you are still signed in into your gtalk. Your current status "Eighty per cent of Malaysians are not “designed” for running due to a variety of conditions such as bone structure, says Mal­aysian Physiotherapy Association (MPA)". Heck I may not understand and I don't give a damn about this, but this is your last status in gtalk.

Now, I'm browsing through your photos in facebook. Next, photos of you in my own personal collection. The front page on my FB is the wish from Jing Zhi on your birthday, with you replying 'tq bro..al the best 4 ur marathon man!!'. Every tab on Chrome that I open for FB, that's what I see. And I don't want to refresh it, I just want to stare at it as long as possible.

I still can't accept this. No I still can't.

Oh. It was the cardiac arrest that took you away no? Still unclear of what happened, but I don't give a damn anymore. Why give a damn when you are no longer here?

Jasmitt, what about our band for Euphonious? During our final year, final sem. You started the idea. And you told me you wanted to play the drums. I said no, cause I want to play that. And I asked you to go and play the acoustic, electric guitar or bass. You humbly asked me to teach you how to play drums though I am just a newbie myself. Now, I'd give everything in the world for you to come back, and be the drummer for our band called 'The Shorts'. I'd give up drumming in eupho, just for you. If we ever got into one.

Why not wait? Why not wait till I get my dslr and have our official cheme gang photoshoot? Why not wait? The newly opened Burger King in Ipoh is waiting for us, for us retards. Do come back please :((((

Sorry for all that I've done, I've said that hurt you. I know you'll always forgive me. I know you will.

These tears that I shed. They are for you. May you walk proudly into the gates of heaven, may you be amongst the angels now. A sweet and kind soul you are, you have already left your legacy.

RIP Jasmitt Bhullar.

Love you. xoxo.
















*classic. us*

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What Hurts The Most
Wednesday, May 26, 20109:45 AM

Ahhh things have not been going on well lately. There will always be ups and downs in life huh? At one moment, life seems too good. But the next second, everything comes tumbling down.

But I'm glad I've gotten over it. Thanks to those who hear me out, and advised me. My BFFs, and obviously, God.

To my BFFs out there, thanks for everything. You guys mean the world to me. I may not be the best-est friend to you, when it seems that I may not appreciate you that much, but deep down in me, I cherish you people like how I cherish my life. Two of my BFFs are here with me, the rest, back in hometown or uni. Wherever you guys are, my prayers will always be with you, and may God bless you abundantly.

It's always better shed those tears out then rather, holding everything in your heart. I've not cried like that since ages, but I am thankful it's over now. Pre-adulthood problems eh? :)

This song. Ahhh this song. What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts.


I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....


There are times, things are best left unspoken. But heck, don't regret it later on. Still at times you don't have the courage to do so.

Exactly like the lyrics above.

'What hurts the most, was being so close, and having so much to say, and watching you walk away'

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updates 1.0
Friday, May 21, 20103:24 PM

Ahhhh sorry loves. I know I've been away for quite some time.

Quickies now! In no chronological / alphabetical order.

-Been eating, and eating and eating non stop. No longer exercising cause I've got a small strip of my toe nail removed thanks to ingrown toe nail. No covered shoes for a month!
-But heck it I'm going for badminton later with Roy and Edwin! :D I'm a sports junkie, and nothing can stop me :)
-I need to shed another 3kgs. Meh.
-Praying hard that the parents will grant me permission to go to the Phillipines.
-Am hooked on Rascal Flatt's What Hurts The Most. The very first country song that I fell in love with.
-Can't wait to get my dslr. Like next week! *squels
-Can't wait to go to Singapore. :D
-Looking forward to another trip to Sibu. :)
-Looking high and low for a bunch of friends to go Brunei.
-It's week 25 now. Another 7 more weeks to go before intern ends.
-And hello hell! Final year omgggg.
-If I got the chance, I want to fly back to Penang now. To meet my parents, sis, bro, grandma. Missed them so much. Obviously, for the food.
-I'll be turning 22 real soon. Okay may be another 2 months but that's like real soon!
-It's 3:30 p.m. Another hour to go. :)
-Currently struggling with some ammonia project. :(
-Loving my tan though I am really dark now.
-I need to go for a good swim. Or a good body massage. Or a good road trip. Or a good workout. Or a good food escapade.
-Planning for my end year holidays again. Singapore again? Bali? The Phillipines?
-Should I get a BB, or iphone? 3g or 3gs doesn't matter. Not 4g. Broke. :(
-ABF's technicians are so friggin' rich. They drive Vios.
-Can't wait for end of the year. Will be attending a good friend from ABF's wedding.
-Looking forward to final year, but not FYP and FYDP. Boo.
-Intern presentation soon! Like one month later?
-Going on a photoshoot with a friend after I get my dslr. And I need models. Anyone? :)
-I'm so sad intern's gonna end! :((((((((((((((((((
-So gonna apply to work in ABF next time! Or MLNG if ABF doesn't want me. Okay I keed! :D
-Had the most awesomest friday lunch ever! Bak Kut Teh + cheese cake + puppies!

What else?

I'm bored.

:(


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A breather
Thursday, May 13, 201010:13 AM

yay finally I have this weekend free! I've been away for 3 consecutive weeks. Firstly to Kuching, KK and then Sibu. Was actually planning to go Miri this weekend for the Miri International Jazz Festival (oh i aint a big fan of jazz actually) but with the increment of bus fares and all the troubles and all, ahhh guess it's better that I forgo it.

So yeah this weekend will be a sleeping weekend. I'll be sleeping my ass off. I'm sleep deprived lately, and I've just spotted a pimple on my face. Though it's a tiny one and I seldom get pimples, so this means I'm really sleep deprived. :(((((

Anyways, life's good here in Bintulu. Getting rounder and rounder I supposed. Though my weight goes down everytime I skip a meal. Hmmmm. I amaze myself at times though, at the fact that I love to eat and sleep so much. This is really amusing. I can eat double portions of every thing now, and I still feel hungry after my meal. Is something wrong? *scratches head

I had this huge plate of Kampua Mee in Sibu, a portion that is deemed fit for those who work exceptionally hard (aka untuk orang buruh), I finished it, and I still feel hungry afterwards, and I craved for Secret Recipe next. Great. Too great. :(

As I am typing this, I'ma feeling kinda hungry already. One more hour to lunch! yay!

On a side note, I've watched Ice Kacang Puppy Love in KK, Iron Man 2 in Bintulu, and Ip Man 2 in Sibu. Haha. And guess what? Iron Man 2 sucks. To your face!

Like seriously la. That guy is so damn arrogant, quoting Phil "He should be kicking ass. Not screwing down own ass". I kinda dislike that movie, I was watching it and at times I was already at the brink of sleeping, so I had to move around restlessly, disturbing others. Haha. I just don't like it. Period.

Ice Kacang Puppy Love was awesome. For a Malaysian made movie. It wasn't something that I've expected. Sorry to say but my expectations on Malaysian made movies isn't that high, but Ah Niu proved me wrong. So wrong. So hilarious, and I love it. Too bad they don't have it in Bintulu now, else I might be watching it for the second time.

Ip Man 2. Need I say more? I seriously think it's the best movie for this year. Mark my words. Donnie Yen is so awesome. So awesome for a 40 year old guy. And he's wife is like 26? Bleh. His wing chun skills. I'm no expert of wing chun but his moves, are real. Based on research. As in the original wing chun moves. This movie made me feel like picking up wing chun when I get back to Peninsular. :D Gonna get Ip Man 1 from a friend, gonna watch it, and then Ip Man 2 again in the cinemas! :D

Next in the waiting list : Kick Ass. I heard it's good. It's hilariously funny. :)

omggggg I can't wait for the end of the month! DSLR and Singapore! *dances around joyfully

xoxo loves!

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KK done. Sibu again hopefully!
Friday, May 7, 201012:36 PM

Hye youu! *waves

I've just got back from KK. Well to be exact I got back on Monday. :) Tired to the max I actually spent Tuesday night and Thursday night sleeping my ass off to replace the sleep that I've lost.

So yeah I'm ten shades darker now. Haha!

Overall KK was awesome. :) Just too bad there are no nice food there. The only nice food I've tried is the Pan Mee at Gaya Street. RM5.50 per bowl. Expensive to the max, very little noodles :( But the soup was seriously nice. But still, the pan mee in Penang is the best. :)

Seafood was so so only. Expensive. Crab + vege + prawns + rice = RM90. Haha.

Let me recap what I did in KK. Went there with Mildred and Sanny.

Day 1 : Touched down at around 4 something, headed to the hotel, washed up, walked to Warisan Square, went over to 1Borneo to meet up with Hui Ting for dinner. Edgar (KK host) picked us up later and we went to his working colleague's house for supper.




*sanny, renae, mildred*

Day 2 : Kundasang for the nice fresh air + photoshoot, Ranau, Poring hot springs. Visited the Kundasang Memorial Park, had photoshoot session there, headed to Ranau for lunch, and lastly Poring for the Canopy Walk and hot springs. Had seafood for dinner.


*with Azlan and Edgar, having McD for breakfast before hitting Kundasang*


*photoshoot. see the dslr Edgar's holding? :) have yet to get the pictures from him*

Day 3 : Went over to Jesselton Point to board the speed boat over to the islands. My happiest day ever! Went to Mamutik Island, Manukan Island, Sapi Island. Manukan is overly crowded, nothing to see during snorkelling. Boring. Mamutik has nice, quiet beaches. Nice corals to see, loads of fishes. Sapi is quite nice too. :)


*at Manukan, look at the crystal clear water behind*

Came back burnt like a cooked crab. Till now the skin is still peeling, and my back is mad itchy. But I still love the islands, and nothing can stop me from going to the beaches. :D I still have Nyalau Beach in my list of next destinations.


*the aftermath. sunburnt*

Day 4 : Went shopping in Suria Sabah, a newly opened yet huge mall. Bought a pair of formals from Voir, a simple top plus high waisted skirt. :D Packed and left for KK at around 3pm. :(

Busted RM650 in total. :( Broke!

So now I'm back in Bintulu, trying to think what should I do this weekend. Planning to go Brunei but perhaps next week.

So this week? Sibu hopefully. :D Kampua, Kom Piang with meat, Ding Bian Hu. Cheap, good food. Yums! *crosses fingers that friend does not ffk last minute. bleh.

xoxo!

p/s : Can't wait to get my dslr end of this month! :D I've waited long enough! haha.

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